mind glides
fog lined fields
collections of fermentation
wet ink
a cloud of grey uncertainty
reunited emotion
as ocean waves hit the sand
his face dissolves
and resolves
mourning the sparkles
resolved with time
mourning a death that never dies
unraveling the day’s soul
how did I become so old?
a thousand breaths and here I am
a reflection for the future
what will tomorrow’s eyes choose to remember
your sticks and stones or charming non sequiturs
searching my senses
never sickened nor set
mind racing through November
what should I regret
8/16
Sincerity steaming from a boiling pot, watched with weathered eyes, under tempur-pedic skies, can it happen? Life together like two birds from the same feather, leashed nomadic-ally, reaching from the sun to earth, knocked out combating-ly, radically speaking words with more chase, lessen this haste all just lessons for debate.
and so the day arrives
a time zone you only imagined
a leaf turned
not falling, drying, or alone
happy again
sparkles on the edge of a midnight moon
too soon?
or not soon enough?
rough is the mind
lost and stuck
better to be free
without my guns
a beautiful woman
we all become
Do you ever seal your eyes to see the day’s pixels circle like a kaleidoscope, memories distilled in light, playing on the white screen deep in your brain, swirling through gloss, describing feelings that make your neck spasm and your spine tingle, lose somebody close and this will happen, the physical signs of a soul escaping, blood filters and drains, so it’s on to the next, the next kiss, mist, and rain, stained memories, the skeleton remains, insane how life never stays the same, and this moment, this thought, this voice is already thousands of years away.
Wish i could love you endlessly from behind closed walls,
but you hurt me badly, and you built a wall.
And you drew a knife into my chest
and drew a painting with the blood that left
See i could go on loving u endlessly, but you built a wall.
Seemingly lovingly
I walk into our past on a daily basis, see you there, waiting for me, it’s some kind of poisoned oasis. because there’s you and there’s me, but i can’t tell what you’re thinking, mistakenly
i take your hand, and walk across the rainy land, tethered with affection, no matter what, you’d always mention, we were headed in the star’s direction. before the night sinks deeper, the fog rolls through, the opaque sky starts to fray, and that guiding star burns its final day.
our last kiss, the thunder’s blemished way
a darkened voice from far away
too painful to head through the decay
electrical storms shocked and strayed
Just want to know you’ll miss me some day
Just want to know
Some day
I asked my dreams, “when will I stop dreaming of him?”
and I asked my tears, “when will I stop crying for him?”
and I asked the years, “how much time to give…
before the let go-oh-oh-oh-ohhhhh?”
As the years pass by will he drift from my side
till I’m just a warm wind passing by?
he may think I’m still near
but it’s just the ghost of my despair
They replied,
“He’s cold, are you aware?
and the strings you strung will never wear
made from a heart who always cares
who always cares”
When the feeling comes when you’re alone
remember, he’ll drain your life he’ll drain your souuuuul
the story’s over and you’re on your oooown
can’t look back the day’s far too youuuuung
your story’s not over you will make it alright
you gotta escape the wrooooongs
to face the riiiiights
Fix the fork, no fix the souuuuul
tenants sing of a garden rich and soooold
lessen the beat that grips the moooold
sink your teeth through the river of growth and rooooll
sky dripping with colors you’ve never seeeeen
fascinating sight
hard to belieeeeve
it’s hard when the love of your life
decides to say goodbye
it’s hard to be okay on your own
you know you will get there
to that place
where it’s safe again
beneath your clothing
beneath your bones
but you just want to run inside
and backwards
and anywhere near your memory’s side
and you want to make it work
but it’s hopeless
because his eyes look on
long gone and dry
yours,
damp with every sunrise
mortalized love
doesn’t come back when it dies
this feeling
it’s like trying to see a color you’ve never seen before
it’s a feeling you’ve never felt
are you still in love with me
or something else?
is someone stealing your love from me
or is it just life
it isn’t what it used to be
cracks like concrete underneath
an ocean bed where we lay
when this wave crashes
and sun rays dribble through cytoplasmic leaves
will we drown
or will we learn to breath
careful with your love
careful with what you miss
unwritten so far
too afraid to hold a pen
would rather look outside it
but you hold the grip
you hold the grip
